Holding on to Hurt.

We hang on to memories, feelings or thoughts that hurt us and I don’t know why.
We do things that are bad for our bodies and for our hearts and I don’t know why.
There’s a lot I don’t know.
But one thing I know for sure is this.
Letting go
It creates space for something better.
Something that doesn’t hurt.
It’s up to you whether you want to do the work to create this space, or to keep holding on to what hurts you. 

I said this a while ago during a detox class I was teaching.  To be honest, I’m not sure where it came from or why I said it. Yet, the words rang so true for me. When I look back on my life, for so long I attached myself to what caused me the most pain whether it were people, jobs or situations. It were as if I were addicted to the hurt, or like I didn’t know anything else. In retrospect, I can see that for many years of my life I was stuck in a cycle of attracting the same situations into my life. Whether is was the same story with relationships, the same feeling at a job or that constant voice in my head saying I wasn’t good enough. But those are the cycles that are brought into out lives so we can find the gift from breaking them.  The most valuable lessons I’ve ever learned was from breaking out of these cycles. From them I found self love, self worth, value and power. Now, when something isn’t feeling right I really look at the situation and see if it’s the universe repeating a pattern over and over, waiting to be broken. In the end, it is all just a choice. Are you willing to let go of the hurt, to break the cycle, for the opportunity for something better? It’s a lot of work and it can be scary, but I promise, it’s way, way better on the other side.